It's been 2 months since I've posted anything on this blog. I warned people when my daughter was born that I'd post less frequently, although I gotta say - I didn't think I'd average 6 measly posts per year ... Sorry!
There are a number of reasons why I haven't posted anything. For starters - I love spending as much time as I can with Alexa and her smiling face. When she's not awake - I'm trying to relax, spend time with my wife, catch up on TV, etc. Sitting down to write blog posts hasn't made it's way to the priority list of how to spend my time.
Secondly, I've had my new role at Google for about 6 months now. While I wouldn't consider myself overly important - I really have zero personal time at work. In my past roles, a slow Friday afternoon here and there wasn't uncommon - but now - I can't think of the last time I was anything but nonstop in the office.
These two reasons are true - but - I think the heart of the problem is that I honestly think I am less creative than I was prior to my daughter being born. Not that I would trade my daughter for creativity (or anything else for that matter), but before she was born - I'd randomly think of blog topics all of the time (ex. commuting to work or randomly during the day when I saw something happen). Now, it's like my brain can't fit these types of thoughts into the rotation.
The first few months when sleep was rare - I blamed my creative fog on that. Alexa sleeps through the night now - so what's my excuse? I don't get into as deep of a sleep as I used to because I'm a little conditioned to be waiting to hear my daughter cry - but I'm still sleeping 7+ hours in a night - no less than I did pre-Alexa.
I've asked other fathers I know if they feel the same - and most just kind of laugh it off (as if they don't want to say "I don't know what you're talking about dude - but I feel bad saying that you're nuts because you are a new father - and that's cool."
Anyway - if anyone has any insight into this creative fog please let me know.
I very much enjoy sharing my opinions on this blog (not like anyone reads it anymore) and would like to continue it for a long time - but recognize that a mediocre posting 6 times a year just isn't going to cut it.
I don't have kids, but some say that when you do, you stop thinking about a lot of the philisophical issues that you thought about before. Everything becomes about your child and taking care of him/her. Your brain could just be wired differently now.
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